New Release: 'Trying to Be'
- Jul 31, 2025
- 2 min read
Updated: Jan 23
New Release: 'Trying to Be' is out now.
This song came from the simple, stubborn wish to be better. Not for show. Not for applause. Just for the people who matter most. For the ones who deserve a version of me that shows up steady, that listens longer, that chooses kindness when it is hard. I want to be someone I could believe in. Someone who does not flinch when things get heavy. Someone who keeps the promises they make to themselves and to others.
I keep catching myself in the same old loops. Hesitating when I should speak. Staying quiet when I should step up. Repeating the same small regrets until they feel like habits. But the wish to do better does not go away. It sits there quietly, reminding me that tomorrow is still a chance. That I do not have to be perfect to be different. That small, honest steps count more than grand declarations.
The Weight of Wanting
Wanting to be better is heavy in its own way. It is the gap between who you are today and who you know you can become. It is the quiet frustration of seeing the same mistakes repeat. It is the ache of loving people who deserve more than what you have given them so far. But the weight is not punishment. It is proof that the heart is still listening. It is proof that there is still room to grow.
The "Still Here" Perspective
I have learned I can only control the next choice. I cannot undo yesterday. I cannot fast-forward to the finished version of myself. I definitely cannot make every day easier. But I can choose to show up today. I can choose to listen a little longer. I can choose to be kinder when I am tired. I can choose to keep trying, even when it feels slow.
Because wanting to be better is not a destination.
It is a daily decision.
And I am making it.
If you have ever looked at the people you love and wished you could be better for them... if you have ever felt the gap between who you are and who you want to become... if you are still trying, still working, still hoping to become someone you could believe in... this song is for you.
Give it a listen wherever you stream music.