New Release: 'My Old Friends'
- Nov 15, 2025
- 2 min read
Updated: Jan 23
New Release: 'My Old Friends' - This song came from a pretty naive place.
I really believed for a long time that those feelings would eventually leave if I ignored them long enough. If I just kept busy. If I just pushed through. If I just pretended they were not there, Agony and Heartbreak and Torment and Despair would pack up and go.
That is what I thought.
Of course, real life doesn't work that way.
Why They Keep Coming Back
They do not need an invitation. They do not need permission. They show up when you are tired. When you are alone. When you are trying to be okay. They take up space. They leave a mess. They whisper that they are the only ones who really understand. They stack stones on your chest until breathing feels optional. They turn silence into a crowd. And the worst part is they feel familiar. Like old friends you never asked to keep.
I used to let them sit inside me way too long. I would feel them growing heavier and still stay quiet because I was scared of what would happen if I asked them to leave. Then one day it would all come out at once and feel nuclear to the rest of me. That is on me. I am learning that showing up means opening the door and telling them to go. Saying how much they hurt. Asking them to leave. No matter how afraid I am.
The "Still Here" Perspective
I have learned I can only control whether I keep the door open. I cannot make them disappear forever. I cannot make them stop knocking. I definitely cannot make them stop existing. It is a hard lesson: carrying them forever is not strength. It is just carrying. And I can set them down. I can write the last letter. I can say goodbye without erasing that they were here. They do not own me anymore.
I have never stopped believing peace is worth the effort. I am realizing it takes much more than ignoring them to feel free . . it takes telling them they are no longer welcome, no matter how difficult that is.
If you have ever felt those same old shadows creep back in . . especially when you thought you had finally moved on . . this song is for you.
Give it a listen wherever you stream music.