New Release: 'Left in the Wake'
- Mar 15, 2025
- 2 min read
Updated: Jan 23
New Release: 'Left in the Wake' is out now.
This song came from the aftermath of a relationship that ended and left deep marks. The kind of ending that does not just close a chapter . . it rearranges the whole landscape. Scars. Baggage. Co-dependency. Trauma. PTSD. They do not vanish when the relationship ends. They stay. They become part of the daily navigation. They show up in quiet ways and loud ways. They make trust harder. They make memories complicated.
I stayed in that cycle far longer than I should have. I stayed because I believed "family above all" meant enduring anything. Meant working through no matter how much it hurt. Meant holding on when letting go felt like failure. I thought endurance was love. I thought staying was strength. I was wrong. Staying in harm is not love. It is survival. And survival is not the same as living.
The Weight of the Aftermath
The aftermath is not dramatic. It is daily. It is the way certain songs trigger memories that now feel tainted. It is the way trust has to be rebuilt one small step at a time. It is the way the kids carry questions they should not have to carry. It is the way the past keeps showing up in the present even when you are trying to move forward. The weight is in knowing the storm happened. The weight is in knowing the scars are real. The weight is in knowing healing is not linear.
The "Still Here" Perspective
I have learned I can only control how I walk through the aftermath. I cannot change what happened. I cannot erase the scars. I definitely cannot make the past disappear. But I can stop carrying blame that is not mine. I can stop believing endurance was ever the goal. I can stop thinking staying in harm was noble. I can choose to heal instead of endure. I can choose to protect what matters now. I can choose to teach my kids that love does not require staying in pain. I can choose to be here, every day, doing the work of recovery.
If you have ever stayed in something harmful because you thought staying was the right thing . . if you have ever looked back and seen the storm you survived and the wreckage it left . . if you have ever carried the weight of realizing you deserve better . . this song is for you.
Give it a listen wherever you stream music.