New Release: 'DONE'
- Mar 7, 2025
- 2 min read
Updated: Jan 23
New Release: 'DONE' is out now.
This song came from the moment I finally let the door close for good. The moment I realized holding any space for her . . any forgiveness, any nostalgia, any hope . . was just keeping the wound open. The pain she inflicted was not a one-time thing. It was daily. It was lies layered on lies. It was manipulation dressed as love. It was chaos she created and then blamed everyone else for. And the worst part is how deeply it cut into the people I love most.
I spent years trying to manage it. Trying to shield everyone. Trying to keep peace. Trying to believe that if I just endured long enough, it would get better. I stayed in the cycle because I thought family meant enduring anything. I thought leaving was failure. I was wrong. Staying in abuse is not strength. It is not love. It is survival. And survival is not the same as living.
The Weight of Letting Go
Letting go is heavy at first. You feel guilty for walking away. You feel guilty for the years lost. You feel guilty for the trauma that lingers. But staying would have been heavier. Staying would have kept the cycle spinning. Staying would have kept the lies alive. Letting go means accepting that some people do not change. That some damage cannot be repaired. That some stories do not get a happy ending. Letting go means choosing peace over pretending. Choosing safety over chaos. Choosing life over endurance.
The "Still Here" Perspective
I have learned I can only control what I allow back in. I cannot undo the past. I cannot erase the trauma. I definitely cannot make her see what she did. But I can refuse to let her occupy any more space in my mind or heart. I can refuse to let her lies define us. I can refuse to let her chaos continue through memories or guilt. I can choose to protect what is left. I can choose to heal. I can choose to let my kids see what real love looks like. I can choose to be done. Completely. Forever.
If you have ever had to close a door on someone who caused nothing but pain . . if you have ever realized staying was hurting more than leaving . . if you have ever felt the relief of finally saying "done" and meaning it . . this song is for you.
Give it a listen wherever you stream music.