RELEASE
LYRICS
I wake up already bracing for the day
Calendar sirens, thoughts in relay
Keys in the freezer, coffee goes cold
I practice being brave like I’m twelve years old
I map the exits in every room I’m in
Carry quiet hurricanes under my skin
I keep a go bag full of sorrys I don’t owe
Hyper vigil eyes that never fully close
My brain stacks alarms like souvenirs
I rehearse the worst so it can’t appear
I’m not broken, I’m adapted to the fire
But adaptation’s getting tired
How do people do life when the quiet roars?
When simple things feel like locked doors?
How do people do life when the mind won’t sit
Heart’s a tilt-a-whirl and the ground won’t quit?
If there’s a way through that isn’t just survive
Someone tell my nervous system I’m alive
I timebox showers like a final exam
Make a million lists I never understand
Dopamine IOUs, attention on loan
I lose the plot halfway home
Freeze, then flight at the ghost of a tone
I keep chasing okay like it’s something I own
I count my breaths like beads on a string
Name five things I can see, touch, hear, bring
I write it down just to make it real
Remind my hands they’re allowed to feel
Talk to the panic like a passing train
It’s loud right now, but it won’t remain
How do people do life when the quiet roars?
When simple things feel like locked doors?
How do people do life when the mind won’t sit
Heart’s a tilt-a-whirl and the ground won’t quit?
If there’s a way through that isn’t just survive
Someone tell my nervous system I’m alive
Maybe it’s micro wins, not miracles tonight
A sink that’s clean, a lamp left on for light
Ten minute tasks and a softer spine
Permission to be human, one line at a time
I won’t outrun the weather in my head
I’ll learn to walk it home instead
How do people do life when the quiet roars?
Maybe it’s learning which voice is yours
How do people do life when the mind won’t sit?
Be kind to the part that’s sick of it
If there’s a way through that lets me stay
I’ll choose one breath and call it brave today
Slow inhale, slow release
I’m learning how to breathe like me